Has been pretty much consisting of only school, working, and taking care of my family only everything else just doesn’t seem to exist. The only 2 things that seem to be driving me is proving all those people who didn’t believe I would make it anywhere in life and becoming a chef. After awhile I realize how much I had given up since high school ended. I pretty much lost contact with all my friends and my love life is just pretty much non-existant. I’m getting to the point where all the loneliness and absence of emotional support is starting to get at me. I wish I had the same experience as most of my friends going to a college with a majority of the student body being the same age. Getting close with a whole lot more people and building relationships. While I’m here sucking up to my instructors because I know their my doorway to the dream career I want to have. Well I guess ill just keep doing what I’m doing and get my self-satisfaction from proving people wrong and I guess just hope for the best on my journey and hope something big happens to spice up my life a bit because there’s just this big emptiness in my life that I just can’t seem to fill at all.
Him before 3 years ago
Him currently (he’s trying to smile) After not seeing him for the past 5 years it was really emotionally tough for me to see him like this. I’m sorry I’ve been absent for awhile bro but you better get used to my face again kuz your going to see me a lot more often. We swore we would always have each others back no matter what and I’m keeping our promise. We’re all waiting for you to recover man and I still want you to be my best man. You’re more than a best friend to me, your my brother till the end.
Finally done with this shit after putting it off for like a month P:
I want to thank all those people that didn’t believe in me, to all those that brought me down, to all those people that made the last 7 years of my life hell. Here’s to all those doubters, the shit talkers, and the back stabbers I IMMENSELY thank you. If it wasn’t for any of you I wouldn’t be where I am now. I find it hilarious that every time I see someone from my past that thought I wouldn’t make anything of myself or just didn’t think I would go anywhere in my life they end up going silent or in awe when they realize that I’m not the same slack-off lazy ass kid I used to be. What’s even more hilarious some of those people that made my middle and high school career a hell hole are pushing themselves to be my friend again. First off if you really were my friend you would’ve supported me and stuck by me instead of drifting off and back stabbing me. Second I’m glad you did what you guys did because if it wasn’t for you guys I wouldn’t be where I am now, you guys didn’t give me the motive to make something of myself, you gave me an inspiration. The best feeling in the world is when you actually prove someone wrong and they end up all dumbfounded. Every time I have a conversation with someone and they find out I’m really going through with culinary school I want to thank them. I thank them because they just added on to the list of people that I want to prove wrong. What’s even more hilarious about some of the situations I’ve had with other people that their lost and have no idea what to do with their life, Most of them were the ones that told me straight to my face that I wouldn’t end up doing anything. I wish the best for you and hope you guys figure out what you want to do with your lives because I’ve found mine. Since it seems that I’m going into this alone without any support from anyone it’s just fueling my inspiration. So to all the backstabbers, doubters, shit talkers, haters, and just to anyone that had no faith in me, I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
holy shit I’m just so shocked…
There is a lot of meaning behind that day for me. 1) I’ve never had a valentines before 2) The girl I asked to be my valentines one year took my gift and said no and gave it to some other guy 3) It’s my best friends/blood brother birthday
So every year whenever Valentine’s comes around its really bitter for me because of my experience and the fact that my closest friend isn’t really in my life anymore. So all in all if I ever do ask someone to be my valentine’s they have got to really mean something to me because no matter what I’m dragging her to go see my bro. If it wasn’t for him I wouldn’t even be alive right now.
Is the one in the middle and the last time i saw him in person was like this on the right
and the worst part I haven’t had the chance to get a picture with him before his accident 3 years ago some best friend I am
I should just delete everything Facebook, tumblr, email, just everything. Lately I’ve been wondering if anyone really remembers me. More importantly if anyone even cares anymore.
My wish had actually come true at one time in my life and it was the best thing that happened to me. But now i finally realize how foolish I was, I’ve spent the last 2 years making the same wish over and over to the point where it became a learned habit. 2 years of my life doing everything I could to revive what was left. 2 years of my life waiting and hoping that there was still some kind of hope. 2 years of my life being my motivation to try and impress you. 2 years of my life wasted. Now all I think of whenever I see this time is how much time and effort I’ve wasted into something that was a lost cause a very long time ago. I’ve finally realized what you really are and after what you have put me through I don’t know if I can ever fully forgive you. Pretty recently you came back into my life after not having any kind of contact for almost a full semester. You’ve come over to my house for the first time and we’ve actually had a real conversation in a long time. Since then you’ve been trying to keep the conversation going for awhile and you’ve even brought up our past and even asked me questions that you of all people should know by now. Your actually lucky that I’m even considering about giving you another chance after what we’ve been through. So I’m willing to talk this out but YOUR going to have to be the one to bring this up, I’m almost completely done putting effort so if you want me back in your life your going to have to work for it. Like how I spent 2 1/2 years working for you. And if you don’t want to work for it I’m completely content with that too, it’s your decision and your life your the only one that can control that. I’m taking charge of my life with or without you because I’ve learned that you can’t just wish for thing to be a certain way, you have to work for it.
